It’s now been almost three years since I’ve posted anything on this blog. I’ve finished a PhD program (that’s right – I’m Dr. Alicia now), taken in `10 more babies, and started a new job.
The little boy I thought I would adopt ending up going with another family, and that’s okay. It was what he needed, it was what I needed, and I’m so stoked to still be a part of his life as an auntie.
Since then, I’ve continued to take medical placements, and I now have a little girl who has some medical needs that have had us in the hospital four times and the ER sixteen times in the eight months she has been with me.
I never thought I would have a baby for eight months again, yet alone one who is so needy, but I have loved it. I was devastated to lose the sweet baby boy that I thought I would adopt, but I’ve come to realize that adoption is not for me.
I have built my life around this calling as an ESH mom, and I love it. There are less than twenty of us in my county, and the program is growing smaller as more parents want to adopt or foster long-term and less people are willing to deal with the chaos that comes with emergency placements.
With the number of babies I have taken in the last seven years (35!!!), I know I am still meeting a need, a desperate need at that. So I will re-enter my calling with a vengeance, knowing that I do exactly what I’m supposed to do exactly where I am at.
ESH Mom Life 